saving grace?

Lately I've been quite down. What has normally been bubbely, happy, self assured, Crystal has been reduced to sad, moody, self deprecating, Crystal. Against myself but quite easily I've been sulking around the house. My mom has attempted to make friendly and light hearted conversation but all I can do is snap back, withdraw, or become extremely defensive. I'm not happy. But tonight a good friend reminded me of Romans 12:12. There is hope isn't there? God hasn't left me, has He? And in the words of Mary Mary, "I've Come to far from where I've started from. Nobody told me the road would be easy, but I don't believe He's brought me this far, to leave me." This particular friend also said, and I'm sure it was the phrase that threw the life presever around my sinking heart thus returning it to a comfortable bob above the waters, "if you rush the building, it will collapse." I still feel like poo, but atleast I know there has to be some kind of redemption planned for my bobbing heart. *sigh, God is bigger...